Growing Pains

Life is not as complicated as it seems. Life is also not as easy as I thought it should be. We say we know what life is about, but when it comes down to it, do I really believe it? When I am shaken to the core, what comes out of me? I'm surprised, shocked even sometimes by the lack of faith, constancy, sanity, intelligence, and goodness I show. I am horrified at my own failures. Did I really think that? Do that? Say that? Was I really living that way? When did I ever do something really worthwhile on my own? What am I doing with my life?

I do not want to be one with great dreams, and many ideas, but never make an impact. It reminds of a story that scared me to death when I was little. I can't remember the exact title, but lets call it, "The Girl Who Never Finished Anything." It was all about this box that contained half-way finished projects. The sad thing was, the work started out well, but it was never completed. This girl, she knew how to do things, but she didn't have enough gumption, enough determination to see it through to the finish line.

In my short life, I have learned a lot; a lot about relationships, health, God and his plans for this world. But what is the use if I don't apply it. I have been thinking a lot lately. Now is the time to re-evaluate. Do you really want to do this thing? Do you really want to be the very best you can be? No more trying to make it easier for yourself. No more excuses. No more succeeding in one area and relaxing in all the rest. No. Its all in or all out. Its all or nothing at all. Yeah, life is tough, kid. Sometimes you don't see things coming. But what kind of person do you want to be? You know that Jesus has some really awesome stuff planned, but your scared because it might not be what you want. You hate the fact that you can't rely on yourself. You hate the fact that God is vigorously chipping away at that "inner strength" you hold so dear because until you are broken, you can't make an impact.

So I'm not telling you to buckle down, grit your teeth, and rely on yourself. You will fail. Accept the fact. You will fall apart. Its part of your growing pains. Buckle down, grit your teeth, and allow God to be the strength in your veins. Ask him every second of every day to be your all in all, not just in theory, in the pages of your prayer journals, or the margins of your Bible, but in your every heart beat, in your very eyes, in your tainted blood. See, life is not so easy. And yet life is not so hard.

Enough Talk, Just Do

Mega phones
Mega churches
Mega attitudes
Mega bleachers
Mega preachers
Enough talk, just do.

Fake the walk
Fake the praise
Fake beatitudes
Fake the future
Fake the signs
Enough talk, just do.

Living selfish
Living easy
Living faux-infused
Living breezy
Living hazy
Enough talk, just do.

You agree
You imply
You'll reach out for the moon
You are in this
You would die
Enough talk, just do.

I'm only talking to myself,
Are you talking to you?