Character Observation: Me

Alright, I promised a friend to do a character observation of myself and then of her, so here goes.

I am slightly non-conventional, partly because I see the world a little different than most and partly because I want to be. I take pride in being different and therefore being myself. My taste in fashion and accesories is plain, whispy, and earthy in color although I can dress more sharp or soft. I am also not afriad to try new outfits that might actually be terrible. I don't care much. If its comfortable and I like it, others opinions don't really matter... except that of my Mother's who often tells me "...no..." I haven't got that many friends, but I'm not hungry for society. I like being around people, but not nesescarily talking to them, especially if we are not like-minded. If I do talk, I tend to talk a LOT, especailly when I'm nervous. I have tried to cast off age and become sort of an ageless person, which I think I have suceeded at. I've always wanted to remain a child, but a wise child. I am sort of an elder figure to all those around me, and oddly enough I find solace in leading and proctecting people, but I can also submit fairly easily when I think another can lead well. I am a very daydreamy person, and the one thing I have tried to master is my mind. That is my vice and enemy. It can carry me away to meladramatic or silly pursuits, or the destruction of people and I can think I am great when I am not. I am probably a little more complex than most believe and a little more simple than I believe. I really have not got much aspiration to marry, and for awhile I thought that this was better than me wanting to marry, but now I see that it is just different. Some people were meant to taste different things, and stand on different shores. It doesn't make one sad, or one better, they are only different. I'm not career minded per -say, but I want to DO lots of things with my life. I would like to be someone creative and fun and easy-going and deep minded and simple and in love with Jesus. That is much easier said than done. I am trying to be more truthful with myself and everyone around me, because I used to build up this mirage that I was perfect, and I try not to do that anymore. On the days that my skin is bad I wear glasses. When I'm especailly happy and aware of it, I move my jaw side to side. When I'm being dramatic I squint my left eye. After watching a movie that I particularly enjoyed, I tend to take on the charactaristics or actions of a certain character. I love writing. I try not to be too bossy. I am more fearful of paperwork and driving than I am of robbers and battles (no joke). Did I say I love writing? My mind set is often this... Me in a green dress, wind whipping all round me, standing on the edge of a sort of cliff, and looking straight into the sun without it hurting my eyes. I love looking at bright lights because it reminds me of heaven, and the fact that I can't look at them pains not only my eyes but in an odd little way breaks my heart. My favorite author is C.S Lewis. I try so hard now not to MAKE myself stand out because I think differently to get attention, but just to enjoy my differences quietly and bring them out only when they will help others and not elevate me. Ah, pride, you've got to slay it! I'm so glad for my family and my very best friend Felicia, who has put up with me and I hope to know on into eternity.