I'm a Recovering Fundamentalist

When Suddenly the World Seems Small

Sometimes
The world seems huge
Like a cosmos that never ends
Because it never does
With everything
and everyone
Spinning
Out of control
I can't speak
or think
And when I see things
Its like they are drifting farther
and farther away...
and I have no power to bring them back

sometimes
the world seems small
like there isn't enough space for me
because there isn't
all my atoms feel alive
and i want to break out
of my skin
everything is closing
crowding
pushing up around me
my thoughts
my emotions
the whole world is trying
to fit inside my head
and i can barely breathe
as the things i feel and think
subdivide and subdivide
into smaller and smaller pieces
the universe itself expanding in my brain

Its at these times
that its comforting to know
I am not God
I am only man
and I will never ever understand
and I was not made to
and though my mind may run wild
I only have today
and I am always a child

Self Challenge #1 - Lose 25 lbs by Oct 15th

Dear self, 

I challenge you to a duel. 

Lets see who survives

The body

Or my will. 

I am very excited about this. I am not going to try to lose a TON of weight ALL AT ONCE like I used to. Here are my simple goals towards weight loss.

1) Take my supplements everyday. I will share these with you later

2) Do a Tracy Anderson Metamorphosis workout everyday along with 30 min of cardio (dance/run)

3) Consume fewer calories than I burn. Goaled at 800 calories per day. 

4) Make sure to treat myself on weekends

5) Lose 2 lbs per week to attain my goal!

Start weight as of 7.22.15 (last Wednesday) 135

Weigh in today (Wednesday): 133

On my way there! =)