For the past week or so, I have been having a terrible time getting up in the morning. Normally, I'm bad enough in the morning with my groggy eyes that are as blind as a bats and the freezing air ready to nip at my cold-blooded skin the moment I get out of bed doesn't encourage me. But lately I CAN'T get going! It probably has something to do with the fact that I suffer from insomnia and have decided to enjoy my condition by staying up late and thinking. I figure "if I'm going to be forced to stay awake, I should just enjoy this time and not TRY to fall asleep. I think there is nothing worse than TRYING to fall asleep... I can't wait until Heaven where there will be no sleeping or eating or drinking or anything that you have to do to survive. I mean think about it, if we didn't have to eat, we could in theory just sit and think for years without any disturbance of having to try to survive. Trying to survive is so very... vexing... It wastes time. Sleep wastes time. Don't get me wrong, my favorite part of the week is Saturday mornings when I wake up late and just lie comfortably in bed, but thats not really sleeping, thats resting. You can't enjoy sleep because you are too busy running around in your dreams and you hardly ever have an idea that you are sleeping, so you might as well be REALLY awake in this reality where you can get some work done! Anywho, I've been barely rolling out of bed at 6:00.. and I have to be out the door by 7:17... and I stand around for just a few minutes and suddenly... I HAVE ONLY TEN MINUTES TO GET READY! I don't know what happens to hours in the mornings. I swear that the clock plays tricks on you... I've come to school a bit late a couple days last week and I just skipped French on Friday because all we do is sit and read our books and I wasn't feeling well, so I just turned in a note when I got to school. I know its silly, but I felt empowered having time in the morning. I love mornings, when I can get up when there is light outside and have PLENTY of time to wake up (I'm like a school computer, I take awhile to get off and running). I also like to SEE the morning, but I can't ever see the morning when I'm holed up in a building. Ah well, hopefully I will have years of mornings where I can just sit and watch the sun come up and then around 10:00 be fully awake! So, heres to those who, like me, love mornings but have trouble getting up; In Heaven there will be no sleep to fall into or crawl out of... hallelujah!
By the way, this was posted late at night. I may regret it in the morning.
Cheers!
I don't know if I have insomnia, but I do have a difficult time falling asleep. What I have been doing is going to bed at an earlyish time (10:00) and listening to an audio book while I lay there in the dark with my eyes closed. It keeps me occupied and my brain from running rampant while I am in a restful position. I listened to Pilgrim's Progress, then some Sherlok Holmes's, and now The Count of Monte Cristo. I get them from the Sno-Isle library website (they have a branch of the website dedicated to downloadable media). I usually fall asleep after an hour or so. So one story lasts about a week or so (depending on the length of the story).
ReplyDeleteThat sounds like a really good idea... I should try that. Its hard for me to fall asleep, plus I LIKE staying up late for some unknown reason. I am more awake at night most of the time than I am during the day. I don't know why! =P
ReplyDeleteMy best friend listens to books on tape while she's falling asleep. Doesn't work for me, but it does for some people.
ReplyDeleteAnd, I have to disagree with your idea of heaven. Food is good. Sleeping is good. If only I could eat while I was asleep!
Oh, I love both food and sleep, but imagine if we didn't NEED them =P It would sure free up our schedule!
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